When Life is Tough, I Count My Blessings
The journey to a better life is slow but worth it!
I've been having a hard time at the moment. Actually, If I am honest, I have been having a hard time for a few years now…. I am just good at hiding it by making other people laugh and seeming positive, and generally just not talking about what's really going on in the fog that is my mind!
I do my best to work hard, do better, make lists of things I should be doing, beat myself up (not literally) when I am tired but I still have things to do- and often not doing any of it because of the pressure I put on myself and then I can't think straight and oh look Youtube, then feel bad because I was not productive enough.
I also constantly think about money and how I can earn more. As someone who is only allowed to work twenty hours a week on a student Visa during term time- this can be quite limiting, particularly when I always need money to pay for new visas but also have a lot of money in the bank account to show I am not a burden to NZ but I also need to pay rent, food, and enjoy myself- It can be a little difficult and very mind consuming!
That being said, when I do take a step back, I realise I have many things to be thankful for and for now, things are not that terrible…
